Amarah

Ive been struggling with myself these past few days, so much happened in one damn time and things had gone very out of control lately. People do mistakes A, people do mistakes.

In hard times ones' true colour showed up like really, it was in that particular moment you'll get the sole chance to realise with whom you're really dealing with, and trust me, in most of the cases the outcomes were not really that pretty.

I knew this as I was one of the ones who cracked out after undergone under such a massive pressure. No matter how hard you have tried to be bersabar, once the limit has been hijacked..there's no way to stop things from getting uglier.

And i'm not proud of it (obviously), as those calmness that I composed over the years of putting my nafsu marah aside gone just like that in one blink of eyes, gosh can you imagine that?

But still, I am not perfect, I am a human and humans do get mad sometimes.

So there's nothing else I can do to fix this thing ASAP except for the dire need of apologizing, and although I know the hurts will heal but the scar remains...at least i'm doing my part first.

So yeah, although things would be like very awkward between us nanti, i have to say that i'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

So much for my happy ending.

That's it.

ps - selalu resah hati lately :(

Senyum

Nak jadi doktor kena selalu senyum. Tak boleh sedih-sedih depan patients, nanti diorang risau.

Ini reaksi awal lepas tengok camano nak buat neurological test kat YouTube, rasa kesian sangat-sangat tengok nasib patients yang kena macam-macam jenis penyakit. Sedihnyaaaa.

Tapi itulah, fikir-fikir balik, doktor yang tengah conduct test tu takdelah pulak buat muka sedih, senyum je memanjang. Yelah, kalau tak nanti lagi sedih lah patients kita tengok muka doktor berubah taim check patients.

So mulai sekarang kena start selalu senyumlah ni, kalau sedih je senyum, tak sedih pun senyum. Kena senyum senyum senyum selalu tak kira occasion.

Lagipun orang kan cakap dont ever reveal your weakness to anybody kan? So simpan lah segala masalah tu di sebalik senyuman, biar orang tak nampak kita ni miserable sangat.

Dan satu lagi, bukan ke nampak lagi hensem kalau senyum selalu, ala-ala lelaki melayu terakhir gitu. Walaupun takde lesung pipit, tapi still menawan heyhey.

Soo, jom praktis senyum jom :)



ps - jenuhnya nak menunggu habis subjek topan ni, tak suka anatomi, susah T_T