Kawan-kawan, Jangan Tensen

Ini bunyinya cliche.

Walaupun aku tak tahu apa maknanya "cliche" tu, lantaklah, nanti aku google kejap lagi ya.

Melalui pemerhatian dan cakap-cakap sikit melalui laman maya, kawan-kawan aku yang turut sama amek medik macam aku mostly berada dalam keadaan tensen sekarang.

Walaupun tak semua, tapi semua fahamlah kan maksud mostly kan?

Tak semua, tapi mostly.

Memang dah selalu dah dengar khabar-khabar angin yang cakap medik susah, baca banyak-banyak, khatam banyak buku pun still tak dapat jawab soalan waktu exam. Siapa yang amek medik memang akan menyesal lah punya, akan give up, soalan ditanya memang susah, pressure amat amat. Pastu malam pulak memang tak sempat nak tidur punyalah, bengkak mata-mata menelaah pelajaran, sampai rasa macam 24 jam yang diberi tu tak cukup untuk sehari.

Oke, itu kisah kawan-kawan yang berada di Malaysia.

Kalau di sini?

Oke, sebelum aku continue, first first aku nak cakap yang aku bukan nak condemn sape-sape. Saja nak bagi pendapat, tapi tak tahulah kan, siapa yang makan cili, memang kompom lah dia yang akan rasa pedasnya.

Oke sambung sambung,

Kalau di sini, rasanya macam lain macam je. Walaupun memang semua akui yang medik tu susah, kena banyak mengingat semua, tapi rasanya study kat sini lagi relax rasanya. Walaupun sesusah manapun subjek tu, at least pelajar kat sini tak rasa pressure sangat. Mungkin sebab sistem markah yang entah apa-apa kot, pelajar kat sini kurang sikit rasa pressurenya.

Cuma itulah, bila dah kurang pressure, ramai yang silap dengan percaturan kurang pressure ni. Kurang pressure bukannya bermaksud kena study sambil lewa, kot kot manapun ni medik lah y'all. Medik lah. Yang kena rawat-rawat belah-belah potong-potong orang tu. Yang kena bukak dada orang, keluarkan jantung, cuci-cuci seket pastu jahit balik waktu orang tu still LAGI BERNAFAS. Apa ko ingat benda ni main-main?

Ramai yang lupa, jadi doktor tu berat tanggungjawabnya.

Boleh buat orang meninggal kalau tak study betul-betul.

Waktu tu, mesti ramai yang cakap kita dah berusaha kan?

Berusaha apekebendenya kalau study main-main?

Memanglah kita dah berusaha sedaya upaya nak selamatkan patient tu, tapi siapa suruh tak belajar betul-betul? Tak ke nampak macam membunuh jugak tu?

Sorry lah agak sentimental seket, memang sebenarnya dalam hati ada sedikit niat nak condemn orang, tapi nak buat macam mana, ini luahan hati. Kalau kena marah, please simpan dalam hati ya. Kalau tak pun boleh hentam-hentam secara anonymous kat ruangan komen.

Lagipun, ni nak royak (baca:bagitau) seket.

Bukan nak bangga ke apa dengan diri ni, tapi aku rajin study sejak akhir-akhir ni starting dengan Anatomi bukan sebab nak dapat markah cemerlang exam ke apa, tapi aku rajin study siap stay up semua sebab terasa berat tanggungjawab ni. Walaupun rasa sedih sebab Anatomi dapat seket gila markah, tapi sebelum tu aku dah setkan niat yang aku belajar ni untuk kegunaan masa depan. Lagipun, aku malu dengan kawan-kawan yang hampir nak drop-off medik sebab tak tahan, sedangkan effort dia lagi tinggi dari aku. Malulah weh, kalau diorang study tak tido malam, kita kena study tak tido malam lah jugak.

Yelah, diorang berpeluh bontot (ok 18sx) belajar, kita kat sini takkan main-main lagi. Memang lah boleh main-main, tapi kena berpada-pada. Aku pun bukannya gila study je kerjanya, macam malam ni, satu habuk pun tak sentuh muahaha, tapi kena selalu ingatlah yang kita ada misi besar ni.

Satu lagi sebab aku push jugak limit aku sebab medik ni bukan pilihan aku sebenarnya. Sebab ini bukan pilihan akulah aku taknak cincai-cincai kan peluang ni, tak nak salahkan pilihan tu, sebab aku yakin yang semuanya ni dah dirancang oleh Allah SWT. Mesti ada sebab kenapa Allah ilhamkan aku untuk amek bidang ni, dan sebab tu aku cuba dan berusaha. Yelah, no one is able to predict our own future, kan?

Wallahualam lah tu.

So harap niat hati ni difahami lah ya, bukan disalahertikan, post ni untuk ingatan diri jugak, harap maklum. Lagipun, ni hentam keromo punya post. Manalah tahu kan, masing-masing ada masalah lain dalam diri, aku mana tahu. Lain kali meh meh pillow talk meh hoho.

Okeh peace out semua, salam.

ps - oke aku tak tahu faham apa itu makna cliche. tapi rasanya penggunaan aku waktu permulaan ayat tu salah. Whatever lah, aku excited lebih.

ps - apekene ngan aku ni layan lagu korea malam-malam buta nih, musykil ajaib nih. Dengar lagu I'm Your Man banyak-banyak kali, pengaruh N Shi lah ni sebab tau lagu ni dari blog dia.

My Hangat-hangat Tahi Ayam

Okay, gross.

For those yang tengah makan nyum nyum tu sori kalau buat korang tak lalu makan seminggu.

Secara definisinya, hangat-hangat tahi ayam maksudnya buat sesuatu secara bersungguh-sungguh hanya pada waktu permulaan, atau kalau nak senang, maksudnya klimaks cuma pada waktu awal, lepas tu hampeh malas nak buat dah sesuatu perkara tu. Yelah, mula-mula hangat, lepas tu...err, lu pikir la sendiri. Kang tak lalu nak makan seminggu. Aih macam buat esei bm la pulak siap ada UBI dan definisi di permulaan ayat nih haha.

Okeh sambung sambung.

Bila buat kerja, aku memang jenis yang huha huha semangat waktu mula-mula jek. Tapi lepas tu, aku jadi hampeh. Lepas pikiaq balik, aku rasa sebab aku jadi macam tu sebab aku ni jenis yang kuat berfikir, selalu pikir benda yang melalut lalut sampai ke mana mana entah, dan mostly semua benda yang aku pikir tu negatif. Tak kisah lah pasal study ke, pasal shopping ke, pasal nak gi jejalan memana ke, haih memang hampeh.

Tapi tu bukanlah salah satu sifat sebenar aku, cewahh tanak kalah haha. Kalau nak diikut-ikutkan, berbanding ngan yang lelain, aku tak de lah hampeh sangat. Penyakit tu kadang-kadang je, dan biasanya benda tu yang jenis melibatkan jangka masa panjang untuk di-accomplish-kan, tu je. So kalau yang jangka panjang tu, biasanya aku guna teknik membunuh diri di last minute lah, hoho. Dan kadang-kadang, aku biasanya siapkan benda tu di kala semangat tu masih hangat, tapi probabilitinya memang tak banyak sangatlah.

Mana-manalah, janji kerja siap, dak eh gitu?

Okeh, sambung baca anatomi, nak final dah 12hb nih.

p/s - tapi bunga tahi ayam lawa lah, dan nama mat salleh dia pun lawa; marigold

hah amek ko bunga tahi ayam

eh apasal wikipedia cakap nih tahi ayam?

bukan yang ni ke?

Beastly, and Jodoh

Well this came through my Youtube's subscription inbox yesterday, and its quite made me thinking.

It's a trailer of a movie entitled Beastly, a sorta modern version of Beauty and The Beast, starred by Alex Pettyfer, Vanessa Hudgens and the famous Mary-Kate Olsen :D

Well Ive read about the movie somewhere last year, it got postponed for Charlie St Cloud, and yeah i didnt know it would be this damn good. Just knowing Vanessa will be playing the role of so-called "Beauty" in this movie made me kinda euw hoho, maybe because I'm not a fan of her, but I changed my mind when I saw the trailer. She looks kinda amazing, and with Mary-Kate Olsen in this movie, one word: OMG-I-Can't-Wait!

Exactly it's not the trailer I wanna talk about, but the song played in the trailer; Broken Arrow by Pixie Lott.

Well yeah I have this huge crush on Pixie since last year, I love her, and there's something in the song that caught my attention last night, the part when it says; "when you've found the right one, at the wrong time"

So yepp, that's the part when ive been thinking.

What'll happen if we've found the right one at the wrong time?

Or the wrong one at the right time?

Or the wrong one at the wrong time?

Menakutkan kan?

Yelah, kadang-kadang when I've seen those youngsters yang bercouple, betulke yang they will be ended up married to each other in future? Takleh salahkan diorang jugak, sebab it's not me who are in their shoes, so tak tahu apa yang diorang rasa. Sorilah, bab bab cintan cintun isnt my niche area, lagipun I am single and will be single until haha secret.

Ish susah bila memikirkan masa depan, serabut kepala otak.

Yelah, memikirkan apa yang kita buat ada hikmah di sebaliknya pun dah boleh buat kita rasa gementar sebab tak tahu yang tersirat tuh will gonna be good or bad.

Anyway, if only if we knew the one that we've met is the real one for us, it would be much simpler.

Well that's life, it never is easy.

And if it's easy it wont be considered as life, kan?

1/10

Not a good day to begin my final with.

I sucked pretty much during my general chemistry's mcq this morning.

It's not something that i should be proud to brag of, and i'm so sure that from all the ten questions that were asked, i only scored one.

I don't know what had changed inside or outside me, because the only thing i know is i am now in such a complete mess. It's humiliating and hurts me a lot, knowing that there's ton of stuffs that i didnt know compared to thing that i know. I struggled, but it seems like things that i read just didn't be digested by my brain. I feel like i am the dumbest medic student in the whole batch, as i even cannot remember simple stuffs like basic formula or what. And seeing others happily answering those damn questions without have to struggle at least as hard as me makes me feels like vomiting.

Plus, I hate to think what others think of me, especially when they expect that you're excellent student but the outcomes show vice versa. Label me psycho enough, but that is exactly what i feel when i feel so stupid.

Damn, I hate when my life suck, and i don't know in which part of mine can solve the problems.

P/S - Hoping for 3/10 so badly. I'm down down down emo.

I'm complaining

If others started blogging by introducing about themselves, talking about their ultimately hard life as a university student, telling about their experience during a special course, about how they and blah blah blah, I think I’m going to tell the weirdest, or maybe the uniqueness of me. ..
- I cannot drink something contained with ice, although there’s exception time for that especially during the hot day when I’m totally exhausted and craving for cold stuff that can cool down my throat. If I drank the icy stuff during normal time, my head will start spinning around and it’s like my brain is shrunken into the size of small peanuts.
- I do believe my stomach is minutely small, as it’s easy for me to become full. I just eat a little and left plenty of “non-sinful” leftovers on my plate, and it’s totally wasting my money! Just imagine that I only can eat less than half of nasi pattaya from the Cemara’s Café and I’m full! People said that’s its nature diet and it’s healthy, but I don’t have that slim, slender figure of a model. Maybe there’s something wrong with the component of my body or maybe I’m really have natural diet and I’m suitable to become a model. LOL.
- I hate vegetables, and it’s totally horrifying me if there’s nothing left for me to eat in this world except vegetables. I don’t know why people like to eat these stuff, as for me I don’t think they’re exciting at all. However, it’s not I hate eating vegetables to death, but the percentage of me eating veggies stuff is relatively small. I do eat them, especially when they turn into salad and be eaten with sour dressing or when they’re cooked into salty-type food. All the vegetables-lover may hate me for this, as although vegetables are said to bring 1001 benefits for our health, I still stick on my status that I hate vegetables. Sorry vegetarian and vegetables!
- I hate complicated structure of life, and I want to have smooth, simple way of life that doesn’t require me to do something that can burden me and my life so much. And because of that, I hate for becoming older and older, and I really want to become as younger as I could be. Its totally annoying to be matured and becoming a very big person and have to leave all the sweet memories behind. Of course, I jealous with others who are younger than me, but what can I do except following the time flies and flies.
- I love purple so much, but recently I’m addicted to bright colour of orange. Purple is also my mum’s favourite colour, and I also like my sister’s favourite red too. I don’t know why I choose my blog to become red, but what I love about my blog’s design is it sorts like a house, with the fences and the tulips (??)…and because of saying that, I miss my home damn much this time!! I wanna go home!
- I actually hate blogging, as I do believe that I don’t have that kind of blogger-spirit in my soul to keep posting something new every week. I don’t like to be that discipline to do the routine, but I consider this as a new challenge for me and as it’s only one entry per week, it should be okay. By the way, who knows I’ll fall in love with blogging and posting something new every single day.
- I think I’m a quiet and shy person, but I can be cheerful enough if others know me well. I’m not so good to begin a conversation, but if someone starts first, I can be talkative. It’s totally hard for me to smile right now, although I’m not that kind of person before. Maybe it’s my spectacles’ fault I think…
I think that’s enough already, or maybe it’s more than enough as I don’t think it’s necessary for me to tell the world who am I...sigh...

P/S – I “love” Physics…