Thursday, January 23, 2014

Mimpi

I shouldn't care much about my mimpi.

But for that particular one, it is.

At the end of the day, A, you will realise that you're just a tool.
That useless, easily tossed freaking tool.

And the hopes and the dreams, they aren't real.
Since beginning it was just wrong and weight-sided and totally bs written all over it.
And you're still hoping, eventhough the mimpi says it all.

And as you wake up from that mimpi, please wake up now too.
Wake up from this mimpi of yours, please.

This ain't no mimpi.
This is reality.

Thursday, January 16, 2014

The not so 50 facts about me

I was inspired to write this post upon watching this video on Youtube. It was so, like, totally random, in which I stumbled upon her while curiously googling on how Yuna wears those kinds of fancy turbans hahaha,

Well the video is about 50 facts that people don't know about her. She's a Swedish hijabi fashion vlogger and in that video she chose to vlog about random facts of her for the sake of making mutual connection among her suscribers.

So anyway, being an awkward-y-and-oddball-y person myself, I often have trouble when people ask me to speak up about myself during our first social encounter. Those meet ups always caught me off-guarded. There are so many things I could say, but eventually my tongue freezes and I ended up being panicked and got to say super boring stuffs blah blah blah you know the drills.

So, seeing how people can come up with 50 interesting facts of themselves enlightened me a little bit. At least whenever people asks me to speak up I can choose any of these facts and start talking. It was actually quite lame since this thing has been around for quite some time on bloggers, you know those tags-me-tags-you thingy...but heyy, for the sake of future me..it doesn't hurt to try this thing, right. And it is kind of fun too!

Well here the list goes, the 50 30+ facts about me. I wanted to do 50 but I guess my brain might be out of juice or something, it was so hard to think 50 and ain't nobody got time for that. So enjoy and happy reading! Feel free to do one too and let me know if you're doing it in comment section :)

#. Let me start with basic things first. I am 23, I loss count of my age this year and I was really shocked to know my real age now, I wear spectacle on daily basis, currently a medical student and my shirts' sizes is xs.

#. I tend to be socially inert when I am in large group of people. Usually I let those loud, friendly, bubbly person to take the spotlight. If it was a small group, I ace them quite good actually and it's been proved recently. Yayyy

#. I have soft spot for anything that is furry or animals-printed. Gotta love the nature!

#. My favourite colour depends on my mood of the season. I used to love purple but nowadays I love tangerine and maroon and brown and burgundy and earthy tones. I hate blue though.

#. I love doodling things on my notes. All my doodles must have these oogly big, large eyes because I have this obsession with eyes. Some of my friends describe my doodlings as dark and emo and gothly, but I see them as high fashionly and of course, artistic.

#. People tends to be so silent around me, and I hate that. So to break the awkwardness I always have to start first and I do it by asking questions. Like hella lots of them. And my friends pun selalu cop me as selalu jawab soalan dengan soalan, so yeah jawablah engkau.

#. I'm suck when dealing with technology or manual stuffs. Guess I am not a techie. Well actually I am a late bloomers, I always late to catch-up new things. Plus with my always questioning nature it's definitely awkward at first. But when I do understand how to do it, I try to be the best that I could.

#. I have this habit to always grab a teddy at the entrance of Ikea to walk along me through the sections. They are not to be purchased, just for the sake of meneman and once I reach the exit area I put them where it belongs. Kids section, obviously.

#. I am slightly OCD-syndromish, tiny misbalances stress me out. I am a not perfectionist, but when things are not in its order, like when the shoes are left in mess or someone's tie is not properly aligned, it distracts me much. The same happened when someone left the tap water loose and the water dribbles out from it, or someone eat so poorly in restaurant with tissues and cutleries everywhere.it can make me go nuts. So so so distracting. Tiny little details distracts me and I hate that.

#. I love collecting hats, all sorts of it.

#. I am easily excitable. Excitement comes first then I will mumble to myself for my own commentaries to that matter later.

#. Chocolate can make me excited and hyperactive for couple of minutes. I will have this crazy fast speech and constantly doing those jittery giggling thing throughout the process.

#. I love mix-matching things in my wardrobe. I'll do that once per fortnight, or even once per week if my wardrobe is messy and inorganized. I will pile up the clothes up on the carpet and start planning my ootds for the rest of the weeks.

#. I like to use two patah perkataan of the persons name in my conversation. Like if the person's name is Fasha binti Karim, I like to use Fasha Karim whenever i greet and converse with her.

#. I don't do spontaneous thing. I need to plan it first in my head or elsewhere. I need to be mentally prepared before I do things and I also need time. The only exception is when it comes to studying. For that one I live for last minute study.

#. I hate driving. But recently it's growing positively in me. I still prefer motorcycles though than cars.

#. I'm not sure whether I like medicine or not. It's still on a fence about it. Though, I am super jealous of those who loves them wholeheartedly.

#. I am definitely Meredith Grey on Grey's Anatomy. The always depressive and over dramatic one is definitely me. A bit creepy but I do narrate things happened through my day in my head.

#. I love those singing reality tv competition. I just love music and I adore the confidence people have to sing. Not to mention these kind of people sing the songs with their own interpretation and I appreciate it so much.

#. I specifically hate when people don't tell me the truth. I accept lies but if you're gonna lie please be good at it. That explains why I am quite outspoken to share my inner intention of why i did certain things, and sometimes people sees me as cruel when they judge my intention.

#. I am concerned with being skinny and thin. I wanna be a little fatter but im scared of being one. I have issues, ha.

#. I used to hate vegetables but recently I enjoy them. Sometimes. But sometimes I ditch them too when I am not feeling so green-y. I love fresh salads though.

#. I hate tomatoes. They just cannot go well in my throat, mouth, everything. Yucks.

#. My favourite singers is Dayang Nurfaizah. I could listen to Dayang's voice like forever. There are couple more in my list but for the top one is her. And yes I love RnB songs.

#. I love studying with the help of 90's or traditional malay songs. I grew up by listening to traditional malay songs when I was a child (mostly to Noraniza Idris and Sharifah Aini, and some Raihan too)...so yes, I enjoy belting to them while studying. Traditional malay songs are one of my guilty pleasures too so shhhh

#. My bathroom is my stage of fame and I can perform grammy-winning concert in them.

#. I am allergic to bad seafood, specifically belacan.  I will get sinusitis for that. The frustrating thing is I love belacan! But I just couldn't stand the fever and bengkak nanah dalam hidung that comes with it.

#. I am very bad with maps. I remember directions using my memory and that is why I hate driving. I will be panicked if I encounter new territory or road. Plus like I said before I am suck at new things so that's that too.

#. My favourite cake is chocolate, and second would be carrot cake.

#. I can't eat my cooking. It sucks since I always invest so much in my cooking, but what to do, I really can't eat my cooking. I am easily full too, sigh.

#. I don't know why I am considered as dark and twisty. I thought I am immature and yeah, dark and twisty. Okay fine. Maybe I am mysterious. Or overly sombong? But some people do finds me quite bubbly once they know me. So what am I? Introvert?

#. I always believe there are two kinds of mirror. The cheating one and the truthful one. The cheating one will make you look good and flawless, but the truthful one is the one that can make you truly look good and flawless once you spot the uglier you in it.

#. I don't like surprises because I don't know how to react to it. I don't do spontaneous thing, remember? But I love to remind people about my birthday, ive been doing that since high school hahah, paksa-ing people to remember the date.

#. Lastly I am always the one who goes to bed last. Its my habit since high school, I am such a late sleeper.

Well if I have few in minds I'll update later. Till then, ciao!



*Just to clarify things out, I didnt go through each of her videos. I just saw the Yuna's one because I was super curious on how they do the turbans things and the video on the link about facts, nothing else.